Today, 16 years ago I made the most important decision I will ever make. it was one night at my house, i remember my mamaw was staying with us because of her cancer treatments and such. I had been asking my parents a lot of questions dealing with God, Jesus, heaven, sin, my brother's death (heavy stuff for a 6 year old) and I remember asking my parents why they kept saying they will see Connor again some day. They told me if you accept Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior you will spend forever and ever with Him in heaven. "To be absent from the body is to be Present with the Lord" as my mom put it. Long story short, I decided I wanted what my parents had, I wanted to see my Jesus face to face one day and so I prayed a simple, innocent prayer as only a child can but it forever marked a change in me. I remember this day as a celebration, a birth, and a promise.
"because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” [Romans 10:9-13]
there are so many times when i fail, or feel insufficient, unworthy. but, that's the beauty of our God. His mercy has no limit, His love transcends no matter how dark or deep a pit we find ourselves in, God is there. In Him you will find as I have found purpose and peace.
so, i leave you with this. i am free because He died. i am broken in His name. and i have never felt more alive than when i am praising His name above all others. God is SO good.
February 25, 1995